Rough Week

This past week was a really rough week for me. I think some of it was due to continued PMS, my poor hormones are out of whack. I hope it is because I am losing belly fat, which they say secretes hormones. I am not sure of the other reasons. I had a rough weekend at work last weekend, and it felt so good to just relax at home. I only had 2 workouts this week. I struggled with my eating plan. I have felt so blah plus resisting temptation gets old really fast when one couples PMS with added holiday food distractions. It wasn't even sweets that I was craving. I have read that around "that time of the month" a woman really does need to increase her carbs. I don't have real guidence on the issue. My mentor is a man, and I think I scare him just a little when I bring up the topic! My daughter is also on winter break, and in the past we usually go out to Applebee's at least once when she is on break. Unfortunately my scheduled "cheat" day is during the weekend when I am out of town working, so we didn't have that ritual restaurant experience. Is she suffering because of it? No. I do plan to switch my "cheat " day to during the week, so we can go out to eat together during the week. We won't go out every week, but it will be nice to have that option. I will wait until the Holiday Challenge that I am currently participating in is over before changing my days around.  I didn't give in to temptation, although yesterday (Saturday) I was over my calories , carbs and fats for the day. I did end up having quite a few servings of walnuts and pecans mixed with semi sweet chocolate chips. My own trail mix blend.

I did feel like I  easily irritated. My mentor would send pictures of his meals which often included some form of dessert, or he would write and tell me about what yummy foods he was indulging in at that moment. All the while I am sittinghere trying to hold onto my sanity while resisting temptations. I felt it was insensitive. At the same time, I couldn't really get mad at him because any other time it doesn't bother me when he does that.

I also get frustrated with certain compliments. A favorite saying of my dad is " Sharon is trying to get skinny. Before you know it, she will be getting married." I feel like he is saying that I am not married because of my size. There is no correlation between size and marriage!!! Trust me, there are plenty of men out there that are attracted to bigger women. It is not due to lack of male attention that I am not married. Nor is it related to my size now or in the past. There are several factors that play into the fact that I am single. The main fact being that I enjoy being single! I am not going to gain weight to prove this fact wrong . If and when I get married, it will be because the Lord sends a man into my life at the right moment. As of now, that hasn't happened. It may never happen, and that is fine with me!

The good news is I have continued to lose weight and fat! I am down to 267lbs. I hit the 45lb lost mile stone!! WOO HOO!! My fat percentage has gone down as well. I am happy about that. I do need to get new clothes. I look so frumpy in my scrubs for work. My casual clothes are really baggy as well. Shopping will be a challenge as I am still losing weight, so I don't want to spend tons of money on clothes that will soon be too big.

I am going to have a better week this week!